for who could ever learn to love... a beast

I'm such a fool. believing in pipe dreams like zis',...

I'm such a farce at times.

zis' is who I really am. sometimes it's rats,... sometimes a larger snake,... sometimes,...

being held by him may feels so right at ze' time, it makes me so calm,
but how could I ever tell him my heart only beats after I've done this,... and for only about 5 hours until ze' next time.
I killed zis' innocent so I could have body heat to give to my infatuation.

I failed to clean up ze' prey zis' time as well. there is a carcass behind him and he hasn't even noticed yet.

I don't want to separate from him. I don't want to release his hand. but my fate,... it's no less than predatory.

I ave' no need for hell. I already carry the abyss.

I'm such a fool.

for now though I can't let him go. I don't care if I'm wrong.

just keep ze' thirst at bay for now,... and take his mind away from zat' bitch.

I won't think of someone like him as food.

I won't think of someone like him as food.

I'm doomed. over a hundred years ago I was already severely doomed.

just keep zat' smile on his face as long as possible,...